Thank You

Yesterday was All Saints' Day. It was also my birthday.
I am not the most faithful person - I skip church most of the times, with the excuse that I'm too far away from home and the Catholic churches here are unfamiliar to me; I forget to say prayers before sleep, and strictly speaking, before and after meal.

But it was All Saints' Day, and my birthday, and also because I was overwhelmed by all these emotions inside me that needed to be released.
My heart urged me to be near to Him, and so I followed.

I am thankful to be able to celebrate my 23rd birthday, and that I only have a little obstacles in my life growing up.
I am also thankful to have friends that celebrate my big day with me; old friends that remember my birthday, as well as those that have wished me using the traditional method by picking up the phone to call me, even though social media is obviously the easiest and effortless way.
And most importantly, I'm grateful that I have a family that loves and supports me unconditionally.

I am not the best person - I am full of flaws, and sometimes I can be extremely difficult to deal with. (OK, probably most of the times).
But I am glad to have a bunch of people that choose to stick with me, even after learning my imperfection and have decided to sail with it.

Thank you for accepting the way I am, thanks for not giving up on me, and thanks for celebrating my 23rd birthday with me.
All the thoughts and efforts are deeply appreciated, and I will keep them close to my heart.


P/s: My dear friend made the chocolate cake on the right. Isn't she talented? x

The past 3 months in a nutshell.

Yes. I'm still alive. Finals were a pain in the arse and am glad it's finally over. Don't really care about the results now as what's past is past. I had a blast on my birthday though. Cakes, surprises, balloons, more cakes & lovely companies. What more can I ask? Very blessed to have what I have right now.

Few more days till 2014. I am never a new year resolution girl 'cuz I know I won't achieve anything. But so far what have I achieved this year?

Hmm. Gained a couple pounds, had a relationship, ended a relationship when I realised that I'm not entirely ready yet, conquered the 4th and 5th semester of my tertiary education (jeez, sem 4 feels like eons ago), and lastly but most importantly I've made some great friends that brightens my day. So I guess 2013 is pretty good ey?

Fixed my hair a day before Christmas to get ready for a fresh start. The 6th semester will be my last semester in campus as off we go to the career field after that. Can't really describe how I'm feeling - Anticipation for a new beginning yet fearing the unknown world. Humans, why are you so full of self-contradiction?

Despite all the mixed feelings, now I feel like I have a clearer vision of what I want for my future and hopefully I will make it there. Hell, I must make it there no matter what for my own sake.

Merry Christmas, you. And cheers to a new year & another chance for us to get it right.

x Jess

November is my favourite month.

WHISK Espresso Bar + Bake Shop △ Ben's △ Twenty One Kitchen & Bar △ plan b

My 21st birthday was just fantastic and memorable.

I had my last exam ON my birthday afternoon (sucks ball I know), and the girls brought me to Whisk for some cakes. Red velvet was okay (I thought plan b’s was nicer) and hummingbird cake exploded in my mouth. Who knows such ugly cake can tastes so good?

Anyway, they gave me a black top I always wanted as a birthday present, and I was really happy ‘cuz that top had been on my want list for a real long time. It was a real simple celebration ‘cuz only 3 people were there with me as the others had assignment due on the next day. We had Marutama for dinner and I was satisfied.

I went home feeling like shit ‘cuz my lens sting and I was so tired I almost fell asleep on the ride home, but I was stuck, in front of my laptop until nearly 12am. Seng called me and sang me birthday song with some other fellas, and I thought, great. Sing me a birthday song with your flatmates. Now how am I going to thank them one by one given that I don’t even know them irl? But then after the song he said, come out we’re outside! Open the gate for us! I was like, ha-ha. Very funny. But turned out they were really outside. With David and Xiang. My favourite boys! I was really touched, I didn’t know they will come that far to surprise me. Seng stays in Bangi while Xiang stays in Serdang, takes them almost an hour to reach Subang by KTM. They brought me a birthday tart. And they tricked me into my room to get something and then showed up with a cake. Ha-ha. Love ‘em. And they bought me a red New Era x Stussy! How sweet is that! Anyway, we talked until 3am and decided to go back to David’s. Woke up like shit the next morning at 8, me skipping classes to hang out with them ‘cuz it seemed so once-in-a-lifetime.

We went to Mid Valley and I left for KLCC around 4. Wandered around with Annie and CV, had the pasta she promised and Annie told us she needed to find her friends at Changkat. I was curious ‘cuz I didn’t know Annie has friends at Changkat. I mean like, why is her friends even at Changkat?! we were so bored CV and I fell asleep while waiting for Annie’s “friends”. Ha. I even fell asleep on the car, provided 0 help on pointing direction to Changkat since my phone was out of batt. After an eternity (feels like that when you’re asleep), we arrived Changkat and I walked into my own surprise party with a sleepy face. Ha! And this time they gave me a real cake and a Pandora charm, I felt like a princess. And the pub is called twenty one. How relevant. The bunch even bought me drinks when we switched to Fram. Had brunch with Lynn the next afternoon and she gave me a watch. I was so awed.

I am so grateful and blessed to have all these friends, especially the boys and Lynn, who give me advises and full support when I needed them. They love me and support me unconditionally, I’d love them as much too even if they didn’t show up. Ha.

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Anyway, something irrelevant to my birthday and my joyful month: I was stalking my distinct cousin’s Twitter and I found out that, she hates us. Well no shit right. I dislike you too but did you see me tweet about that? We’re related and I’m polite enough to not talk about it. I never hate them. I do dislike them but I don’t find it’s necessary to hate them, ‘cuz what they ever did was just showing us their superior face as if they’re different standard and living the gold life. They never cross me/us. And kid, we visit you sometimes only out of courtesy, not because that we love you to the extent that we’ll die if we don’t see your face. So yea. Go fuck yourself, instead of whining on Twitter that you hate to visit someone you hate.